i've been trying to manage my weight lately.
it's not as hard as i thought it was.
the point is not to think about WHAT you're eating, but how MUCH you're eating.

so the good news is that i dropped 4kilos from my usual weight.
well, from the weight i gained during the semester;
but anyways, i need to drop two more kilos and i think i'll be happy ^^

trying to leave photos of myself lately.
feel like i have to really grasp the last moments of my .. youth ?
well seriously.. i've been really feeling the aging process lately.

i haven't been going out at all..
hanging out with my bf all day which is nice and relaxing.
however, i have a feeling that i should start going out more;
maybe i'm letting myself go??

anyways, been pretty peaceful lately.

which is good; but just think i should start a hobby or something

well, cheers to losing weight !

Final exams DONE

winter BREAK

a hell YEAH

with nothing to do but reminise the past

and dwell on the present

live inside doomage

drown in morbid fluid

die in euphoria


BREAK me into tiny fragments and free this sad lil girl in me

PAHAHAhahahah WTF? - _- .. i.. should ...go now

october.06.2006 friday


insanely busy days
5courses 3 labs
18hours of classes and double that time of homework,assignments,studying
3 students to tutor
juggle juggle juggle boggle booggle buggle booggle x_ x
so i'm 5 weeks and surviving in school
i am extremely proud of myself for getting by
there was not a single period of time that i worked this hard for anything
i finally feel like i am making something out of myself
although i have many obstacles such as being physics-disabled and impaired in chemistry, one day i shall conquer them... squash them... -_-(i kill jooo... )
thanksgiving weekend
not quite, but still feels good
baking turkey tmr
got fat (not kidding, or being overly sensitive about this weight issue)
so... i'll stay fat for a while since i need excessive energy to drive myself more
just to keep me going
NOOOoooOOO
okay, i'm going on a diet starting... 4 days from now?? -_ -
anyways, thanks to God who got me here from there

ps. Rollllly oppa, i miss u hehehe!

How come there's no anniversary for singles?
couples have it, and they celebrate it...
i think there should be a celebration of being single, celebrating myself being on my own.
it should be more fun than the couple's anniversary, because it should probably include other singles and partying (rather than the forced romance type of anniversary;; )

so, it's been a year since i've been single.
where's my party?
hehe

School is starting SOON aHhhhhhhHhhhHHhh~
taking 5 courses, so i gotta keep myself completely concentrated

i was hoping to do some dating before school started, but i only had one date haha
and once school starts, NO NOTHINGGG

i have to juggle 5 courses + tutor my students(x_ x) + singing lessons+ keep up with yoga...
and i also want to squeeze in dance lessons.. (maybe not... sigh)

well, i guess i'm meant to be single, and personally, i intend on only dating.
*dating= watch movie, eat dinner, nothing else

anyways, HAPPY 1YR SINGLE ANNIVERSARY TO MEEEE~~~~ hehehe : D

When did i get so old?
how did i get so fat?
oh wait, i was fatter so... but really, where did all that time go?

i must admit, i feel like i'm about 35 right now.
plus i'm feeling heavy.

so i started dieting.

it's helping me feel a little better losing weight...
but really.. i can't let go of the fact that a chunk of my life just flew over my head.

i guess i was distracted by all the overwhelming "things"..
those piled up suffocating me and when i woke up,
here i am... old and wrinkly

i know i should look at the brighter side...
look forward for things to come.
but right now, i'm having a gloomy moment.
still in shock of that big chunk vanishing from my life.

when... did i get so old...

feeling guilty for throwing my youth away for absolutely meaningless crap.
or did i...
can't turn back time...
if i could... i would have done so many things differently.
or would i have done things differently??


maybe i should do some yoga for some ZEN...
@_@ i should stop now.


ARRRR just gimme back my LIFE!!! >_< gimme gimme